This Star Won't Go Out

I am tired of being alone.

I am tired of boys like Dan,
Who make me doubt myself.
That's right. I'm putting a name to the identity.
You're no longer going to be able to hide and run.
And you can apologize a thousand times,
But you can never take back how bad you made me feel towards myself.

I am tired of boys like Jim,
Boys I can't shake. Boys I can't forget.
That's right. I'm admitting it.
I can't seem to make the lie I've been telling myself real.
I can't get over you.
But maybe that's because ther isn't anyone there to help me climb.

I am tired of boys like Mike,
Who wait and wait until Rapunzel's already left her tower.
That's right. I know how you feel.
I guessed after the games we've played.
And it's alright,
But I don't know how I feel. So I can't tell you.

I'm sorry.
I'm sorry to all of you,
Because I can't be as strong as you think  am.
Because smoetimes I get so mad at the world,
I scream and cry and pull out my hair.
Because I hate my body,
But can neverdo anything about it.
Because I can't have you,
Because I don't deserve you.
I apologize for lying to all of you about who I am.
I'm not confidant in myself. I need someone to make me that way.

There are a million shining stars in the sky tonight.
Thought right now I can't see a one.
Sometimes I think see one.
Then find out it's a plane trying to take me somewhere new.
But one day will come when I'll see a star,
And we will burn together in a supernova like no other.
Maybe I've glimpsed that star without realizing.
And maybe I'll discover one that no one's ever seen.